entering in grace,
(If you are new to this series start at the beginning for the explanation, if you have been here before scroll down for the table of contents.)
It’s that time of year again – Write31Days – where a bunch of bloggers decide to join a link-up and commit to writing every day for the month of October.
My sister and I are tag teaming this year, so some of the days she will be posting on her blog, but don’t worry, I’ll direct you over there. Let me explain.
This year October is coming to you in the form of Post Cards and Pictures! That’s right! During the next 31 days we will be receiving post cards from October in all her glory. She belongs to me you know, but I am going to share her with you.
October will be reminding us of all that is great about this season and giving us permission to enjoy all her bounty.
In response to the post cards from October, my sister will be posting travel pictures to share with October (and you too, of course) to show her appreciation of the season. She will ask you to caption them in the comments. That way you get to be part of the correspondence.
Won’t you join us on this little adventure as we celebrate the loveliness of October and all the treasures that await .
In fact, I received a post card from her just today. Enjoy!
Table of Contents
Click the banners to see the daily post cards (on the days my sister posts it will direct you to her blog). The link will be live on the date that corresponds with each post card number.
I look out my window and see you standing there, all forlorn in your red jacket and shoes. My heart breaks into a million pieces as you look around lost in another world.
I’m helpless to fix you. I wish I could take you in my arms, hold you tight and make the pain go away.
Memories of things said in haste flood my mind; things I wish I could unsay because I didn’t know. I didn’t know you couldn’t always help it; I didn’t know how bad you were hurting.
How we were all hurting. Walking around in a fog trying to make sense of the new normal. In many ways we are all ill – it has changed us. We dig deep trying to find answers; trying to hold onto hope, but failing in so many ways.
I don’t want you to leave before you go. I want you full and present while your’re still with us. I know it’s not about me, it’s not about any of us really.
We’re the burden bearers reaching out to you to offer comfort, accepting the reality that it’s never enough. I stifle screams for mercy and laugh with you over whimsy and words that have no meaning.
The laughter is the mask that helps us live, otherwise we’d cry tears unto death. We won’t give in without fighting. I won’t lose you. You are still you.,
I wait for a glimmer of your essence and thank God for you..I blink away tears as I watch you walk away and I pray for mercy, strength and peace.
Later, I’ll cry those tears and hope they wash everything new again.
Hoping in grace,
postscript: a few years ago my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimers. It has been a long painful journey, but it has also had pockets of joy and gifts. I don’t write about it much because it is so painful. I have begun to realize that in the writing, a bit of understanding and healing lurks in the words, so today I shared some recent thoughts. I didn’t do much editing, letting the words speak for themselves they way they were felt.
I’ve been somewhat participating in Blogtember this month. I bowed out a few days and gave myself a long weekend break. Today’s prompt was fun and I decided to join in, although it is rather late in the day. Click the title below to see what others have in their bag, then come back here to see what’s in my bag. You can share what’s in your bag in the comments. Curious eyes want to know.
So, my bag is one big mess a lot of the time. I start out organized (smaller bags within the larger and everything sorted by type) and it goes really well for awhile, but a hurried “stuff this here” and an “extra paper or receipt there” and well, before too long chaos reigns and I struggle to find what I need.
You can probably find out a lot about a person by the contents of their bag. Just saying.
I recently, in anticipation of this post, dumped the contents of my happy orange bag on my kitchen island table. I then wrote down every item that was in my bag. They are listed for you here in no particular order:
Wow! That’s a lot of stuff. Most of which I don’t need, but you know, just in case. I did throw away a lot of items and sorted through everything else and put things back in their proper place (smaller bags and side pockets), so for a few days all will be well again and I might even be able to find the house keys.
In other bag news: a new bucket bag just came in the mail this week and soon I’ll be making the switch – here’s hoping it will work for me. I’ll keep you posted. Maybe.
So, really, what’s in your bag – I’d love to know. Please, please tell me I’m not the only clutter bag out there.
Re-bagging in grace,